Hey, hey guys! I keep going like this "PHHPPTTPHHPPHHHTTT (audibly makes raspberry noise instead of typing it)" . You basically get the gist. So once again, you're welcome. Had I written a post yesterday it would have required the title "Wildly Inadvisable".
Anyhoo, vanity first:
So how is chemo going?
5 treatments down, 7 to go! Technically we don't know if it's doing anything yet because I haven't had any re-staging, but the itching being gone is a great sign. The palpable nodes in my neck that weren't removed in surgery are definitely smaller. I'll have a chest X-ray in about 2 weeks to see if there's any progress. They're not bothering with the MRI because the stuff it showed in the first place was small and I might not fit in the machine in 2 weeks. YES. I hate that dumb machine and I can pretty much guarantee I couldn't lay flat on my back in a drinking straw for that long at this point in my pregnancy. How am I actually handling the chemo? I'm just so blessed you guys! So blessed. No nausea. At all. I'm not bouncing back the same way I did in the beginning but DUH NELLA, you've had a bunch of CHEMO and you're getting bigger and more pregnant everyday. So I'm tired. Very tired. I have to lay down a whole lot. But who am I kidding? Like I told my doctor, I'd be lying if I didn't fess up to the fact that I've spent the last 9 years fantasizing about laying down and resting. I miss my family and being normal, but for cancer, could it be more easy? I seriously doubt it. Plus, you won't believe this: The timing between my treatments and reaching 36 weeks pregnant is perfect. Not a single day wasted. I have a treatment at 34 weeks pregnant and get the 2 full weeks to recover as best I can. Then, as long as baby girl continues to crush it in the growth and development department I can deliver her at exactly 36 weeks and as long as I crush it in the recovery department I can start treatment again 15 days after she's born like nothing ever happened. Not one day wasted. It's just perfect timing. The nurse practitioners and doctor were practically dancing a jig in the office. Praise God we are so blessed. I'll be properly staged after baby girl is born and if everything looks good THEN I'll only have 2 more cycles of chemo and I'll BE DONE BEFORE HALLOWEEN!!!! AAAAHHHHH!!!!!! There is a lot that could happen between now and then but so far so good!
No name, don't ask. She is doing awesome. I actually had an ultrasound today and was wondering if we would see anything different as far as heart rate or circulation or anything since I just had chemo yesterday and she looked totally normal. Totally. Oh how my heart sings! I could see her eyelashes and I think she looks like Julia. We are all very anxious to meet her.
So, that's an update. I've been working on my mourning home birth post and I've had to delete it at least 4 or 5 times because it tends to devolve into all caps diatribes about misogyny and nobody needs that. It's also a tad counter to the spirit of trying to mourn and release things. I guess you didn't need to know that. But it's my bloggy and I'll share if I want to. <------Fruit loop Nella is back. I'm going to sleep.